So God totally kicked my butt this morning.
Instead of playing solitaire or checking my email
before work today, I read a chapter from
one of our premarital prep books, When Sinners Say "I Do".
Just the title alone humbles me, however,
today's read really brought me down a peg.
It was the chapter on mercy.
The most humbling part of this chapter
was a story about a pastor and his wife,
and the pastor had married this lady
only to further his pastoral career.
He did not love her, nor did he
respect their marriage
for 40 years!
However, the wife remained
patient with her husband,
raised her children,
and they eventually divorced.
Throughout their entire marriage,
she was assured of God's steadfast love
and He sustained her for her entire life.
The best part of this story is not that
this couple split; it's that the wife
showed mercy on her husband
and forgave him for everything
despite his dire treatment of her.
This couple is now deceased, but both
died with the promises of the Lord
and the forgiveness on their hearts.
That is real, 100% Godly love.
(Couldn't help but include the Greek. Sorry.)
Only through the almighty, wonderful, merciful Lord
can someone forgive something that was done to them
I began thinking about how I respond when
I feel I'm being wronged and how it's either
contrary to my theology or in line with it.
Most of the time it's contrary,
because I'm being self-righteous.
Who am I to deny someone
forgiveness and mercy, when
I am in need of it daily?
I drove to work today with
some heavy thoughts about forgiveness
and mercy on my heart
and know that God is working
on something big in me.
Let's hope for my sake
that I listen and obey.